The Game

Life itself is a big game in which you play with what you want to be ? and what you are?.Its a game between what's perfect and whats in your hand , a game in which u die a thousand times daily in your heart but you still have to take care of the rest of the world and pretend to be happy with that smile.Sometimes i feel like leave everything and move into the wild just like Christopher Johnson MacCandless did and see the purity of everything ,purity of thoughts ,purity of love,purity of being truthful,purity in every drop of life where you will live like a 5 year old and learn everything with nature.Or another thought which comes into my mine is to get high and stop listening to all this world it has given pain which is not curable ,it is a cursed world with people keeping foot on others head to step forward in which everything is build on lies ,hate ,betrayal.But as said the stronger and fitter survives and people do survive with it and live in it by building a cocoon of love and faith.I say its good but how long this cocoon will last someday you will come out of it and see the reality or you will die in that cocoon considering that place as your whole world as you never wanted to either face the reality or you always wanted to limit yourself.I myself don't know what am I writing but for sure it comes from my heart.
What is life nobody i guess nobody can tell but its a journey for sure in which one day surely you will know it.

Me @ IITR

Writing this blog on the eve of my final project presentation on this campus.hmm....this campus !! i will remember it for a lot of reasons it gave me moments of sadness ,joy, excitement ,learning, loads of loving friends,big tym chapos(iitr lingo :P..).some of the moments that really stood out in these years were like getting scolded by the prof(majnu :x..) and thrown out of the lab repeatedly, a guy coming from behind and asking me "madame where is St.sumthin school :x (surely he was sob) well it was not his fault i had a pony and i am thin so may b looked like a gal from back embarassing huh!.then there was that eagerness to score in xams (ofcrse died aftr 1st year..thanx to E&CE class mates.there were these DJ parties in UG club in which we danced like hell (although for a third persoon that may be termed as kicking and boxing in air :P).Ofcourse falling for someone (dont't make mazak .that do happens once in everybody's life :) )Then came the fun part of life 5 and half months in europe.The first day i was a non drinker,didnt even used to touch eggs call me crazy a month later i cudnt sleep without getting drunk(even tried yoghurt wid vodka..awsum guys :D) and i was eating horses and reindeers(enuf of being veg :P).Met so many ppl in europe they had simple policy the amount of u care for them is the exact amount they care for u . Had so many wild parties (confidential matter :P ;) ).Enjoyed the whole tym made so many friends wid different nationalities and it was like party everyday from one or the other.Then came time to leave still have fond memories of the 31st december it was snowing celebrated new year whole night with like me drinking 5 bottles of champagne(ofcrse till then drinkin capacity increased;)).had a flight 9 am 1st jan some how reached still cant believe it airport is like 70 kms away from stockholm.had 5 sek left ofcrse some momey in INR boarded the plain and guess wat ordered 2 bottles of champagne and then wine (thought this may b the last time of drinkin).took a resolution of not drinkin in india (kept it for 4 months ...u shud appreciate).
Coming back to India after living such lavish life was the hardest part :x.missed by bath tub shower ,night clubs...(well the list goes long).Resumed studies in IIT again uff it looked so boring even till now :( .I started enjoyin again as u hav to forget the past started nw did hard work in swimming and it proved vital with a very important contribution to help IITR win its first medal in Waterpolo(only thing I call as achievement in my life till date ).Njoyed the placement times sab ki fati padi rehti thi I gave interview got selected on the 18th dec in BPCL(didnt even got a chance even to wear my 2 suits for the purpose . .kiddin :P) .Last sem now I have started feeliing like i am leaving the place which gave me the name ..MOGLI..Thanx ppl for everythin .
yours MOGLI